every single day i am telling myself no matter what just hold on and don't ever thing the opinion to give up or else. so i hang in there. never thought to give up and stop giving a fuck. i know all my attitude which make people hate me, can't stand over me, want to get rid of me, piss me off,or what else. however i never ever thought my bestest friend can't even accept me. this isn't the first time she doesn't want to be with me. i am the only friend who always making trouble for her. making her so suffer, making her angry, making her to hate me. i really don't want to. it hurts when i knew that she can't accept my attitude. sometimes she doesn't need me to know something that happened on her. i was stuck. it isn't easy to accept someone who really mean so damn much to you had piss you off. don't need you or what else, i don't know. i am so scare. best friend. addicted on this friendship or what. thinking all alone. she doesn't reply my text. she doesn't. even i am waiting, she doesn't know. maybe? or what? i don't know. i want to know i need to know what she is thinking, she is tired. or what? i would never give up on these. am i suppose to tell my mummy about this? or just keep in my heart. better don't tell or something will happen. haha. don't laugh at me. you don't know how i feel so stfu. i cried over. i treasure all these. i love my best friend.
i remembered why i started so i always get back my mindset, rest awhile and move on. NYJ GO GO GO
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